These past few weeks have been kind of rough for Kevin and I. It hurts so much when we aren't quite on the same about things. And my anxiety and jealousy hasn't helped matters. I just pray we get back to where we were. Or better yet better than we were because we got through this hard time. I'm looking for a good outlet, but I haven't found one yet. sigh. I really just want things to go back to normal. It hurts so much being like this and feeling like this. Kevin has been so busy lately and he hasn't really made much time for me and when he does he is too tired to even talk. It makes me so sad…. I just want to be the girl he wants to talk to at the end of the day and I'm not and it sucks. We lost our simplicity now we are confusing. I feel like he has zero patience with me and all I want is to explain and that just pushes him away. And some how somewhere we are just missing the mark and its causing arguments and constant fighting. I'm starting to think we just need some space apart from each other. So we both can remember what it is we love so much about each other. What parts of each other we don't want to live with out. Things we miss the most and focus on that. Just focus on being happy we have each other again not taking anything for granted. Now that I am able to think a little clearer I don't think its 100% this new girl in his life. I think it was just a trigger for the things in our relationship that need work. I need to feel needed, and he is so independent he doesn't need me. He doesn't need me to be just fine in his life. He could go on without me and be just fine. He doesn't need me, but I need him. So I guess this new girl has brought out my insecurities and showing me I need a little bit more from him, I don't want him to just be okay with me pushing him away. Feels like he is just done trying to understand for me. idk more later on the subject. Spewing my mind on here is better to him because he hates this kind of stuff and it pushes him away and makes him resent me. awesome.